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Friday, April 27, 2007, 7:22 PM feeling complicated..... i will not trust anyone i feel like im a helping centre when ppl need help they come and find me...no need help jiu push me a side.... HA wad i joke i treat her as if she is some one so very important and that will do all i could to help her as she USED to be a gd friend of mine...... i spent the whole day not revising my work ....cried almost at a time i was like walking home and my mind went blank i dun know why i am here.....almost dead at that moment .... wheni was walking home today in the carpark i almost got bang by a car......dun know what i was doing...... i mean i dun think there is a point to die ...lol....but i juz wasnt concentrating....reach home...all of a sudden was watching wan yu buti cried......was like wth ...... but lucky thing i had a gd thought.....i think it's juz my life lah...... promise nvr to dash to help her anymore ,not like im evil but i think that she need another gal example....lol...i think the ppl whom i pour my sorrows to knows ba.... i hate this feeling, i mean since she needs her then...i shall leave them and juz like go to ppl who seriously need my help..... i dun know if im rite to do this decision not.... i could no longer take itanymore that is why i blog.....pardon me if i said anything bad..... im on the verge of going bonkers.... decision made : leave them alone and dun care? i mean is it worth it.......u ppl juz treat me as if im a helping centre responsible for helping ppl.... and plz do not show me ur f*ucking attitude........thks for the cooperation..... na dalso dun act as if u pple know everything ............ PLEASE!!!!!! Friday, April 20, 2007, 7:48 PM ok ....juz finish SYF yesterday....got the result.......is was not wad i expect.....but maybe because of this i got to get closer to all my beloved friends.....we all cried........but at least at that moment we still got like wenxin they all comfor us......also got larry and leslie...oh ya thks larry for his tissue....then after knowing the result went to marine to eat...lots of funny things happen lah......lazy to type out then today ....as usaul...things happen....carine was like crying.....really pity her ....she always got bullied and that gal....plz do not do anything to harm my friend i mean how wld u feel if ur gd friend is being bullied........try puting urself in her shoe can??? be cinsiderate lah.....i meani had nvr seen her cry until like tat before......plz treasure her........ and know wad...bad things keep happening to us this few days..... first SYF then later carine stuff.......and this morning was like becuz of wad the fungus said ...made charrieri cry...she is like a very strong gal or and u make her cry...mygod u r so evil...i mean i knw u dun mean it lah..... anyway in final....ppl let us all not cry anymore...... be brave be strong..... like i always say time can cure everything... ok?? thks mushroom family for ur support thks larry for those msg u send to me ...i wll always remember it.. thks sy for those jokes ?!...lol and leslie....thek for being so funny ... like i said we ppl are like a set of puzzles , if one piece is missing , the picture would no longer be completed.. Saturday, April 14, 2007, 11:04 PM today was fine........ however when i wakeup in bad mood dun know y...hmph was like it is near mid yr but i not yet start doing anything...not even revision or notes..iz like wth...lol.....was lazing around stilll......haiz......anyway...today i hear a couple quarrel at my block...then make me wonder.... it was like i remember that time when one of my junior told me that he broke wiv his gf...when i hear that i was like...kind of like sad?! i dun know y.....i mean i wonder how he felt when he broke wiv his gf...and like he had no one o talk to the kind of feelings that is within him....and like no one is there to confort him and everything....haiz...but actually is like there nothing to worry about lor cuz like a week or 2 later he was together wiv her again...lol.....my feelings that time was like complicated but yet....eh happy maybe becuz he is happy...i dun knw..... everytime when i walk pass his gf i felt like im so guilty cuz i like tat guy...but i think the gf dun know lah........haha......but anyway is the pass le.......cuz i know no point to like a guy who already have a gf that he really luv........and know wad i would nvr nvr wan to be someone who brak ppl relationship.....lol...... anyway...give up on wad relationship thing...but wan to fpr us on things that i like like tv frends of cuz music...lol...... anywya lets talk about things tht happen recently...hmph....practicing for SYF really hope to get gold.....the effort that we put in ...i didnt wan it to go to waste........ of cuz as usual everyone had everyone's problem........eg studoies...relationship and so on...i mean of cu everyone has their own probelms...and of cuz we cant eventually solve everything in one d nvr gay..and so we need time to settle things...lol...so maybe let time help us solve things ba..... oh ya here wan to congrat those who got into EXCO haha.... also the sec 4 senoir....work hard 4 'o' level ?? jiayou...... and to my beloved mushroom family....luv u guys haha......lets go out together one day haha...so long nvr go out le..........haiz no $$$ lol..... anyway gtg le..... hope that things go well for me and all of u out there...... hope that i could find the laughter that i long lost ba..... the heart ,the mind, the soul peace wiv all Sunday, April 8, 2007, 9:42 PM it's been long since i last post....maybe due to those feelings within me that i could no longer understand myself.....i use to think that juz by thinking of ways i could solve almost every trouble in my mind.......but now my mind is in a mess.... i dun understand a single thing bout us.....our friendship seem to have been broken........ maybe i have change but...i seriously dun understand...i mean i used to like the way we joke and everything...but now it seem to hve change...maybe from the beginning i was wrong i use to think that our friendship is strong but i think im worng...i over estimated our friendship...alright...i thot it through......maybe the onli think i could do now is juz to like pretend and bear wiv every single thing.... fin so now i think the first thins is i have to change my temper........a real difficult thing to o....like wad agnes say...all u can do is to ren !!! ....lol...... i kind of miss my primary school friends now....kiagek sf marchia erny tim ken shaun travion and lots more...i mean whenever i need them they are thereespecially sf !!! she is like my longest friend...since k2 we play together .........miss her alot...and kiagek....forever joking aroundwiv me .........and erny who always like 'enlighten' me.....not forgetting shaun lah ......when bored will sms him.... i mean our friendship since primary school last and yet u and me....wadever !! lol........ maybe we ppl take things for granted..........i mean ya we dun treasure things until one day when uwe lose it.......haiz.... anyway today saw a bk wiv a title life without limits.... didnt really read the bk but i was like looking at the cover staring at it for like at least eh.........5 mins?! lol...... anyway really miss my gd gd friends !!!! maybe is onli when ithe day i leave then will they treasure the frineds around them....... within a human there will always be selfishness and jealousy ... i really hope that i could get rid of this thing...is onli then when i would have no more worries i really need a fairygod mother now.... i need no sympathy ...wad i wan is juz real friendship.... and someone who really cares about me.....i mean REALLY care about me feeling abandon......suck !! |
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